Para sa gusto nang mag-move on
Sa mga ayaw nang mag-hold on
Sa mga pagod nang masaktan
At takot nang maiwan.
Sa mga pusong sawi
Luhaa at duguan
Sa mga matang pagod nang umiyak
At mga kamay’ng wala nang kahawak.
Wag kang mawalan ng pag-asa
Puso mo may nagdurusa
Pasasaan ba’t ikaw din ay liligaya
Matatagpuan mo rin siya
Ang taong sayo’y magpapasaya
Hindi na kailanman mag-iisa
Dahil sa bawat paglubog ng araw
May kamay na hahawak sayo
At sa bawat bukang-liwayway
May mga bisig na yayakap sayo.
Darating ang araw
Ngiti sa iyong mga labi
Ay muling matatanaw.
One day I will find you. Or maybe you will. Or maybe we will find each other. Someday, our paths will cross and we will walk on the same road. Your joy will be my happiness, my happiness will be your gladness. Your tears will dampen my cheeks and you will feel my embrace. My fears will be mine too but those fears we will fight together. Someday when our paths will meet at the crossroads God has created, each of us will be the fulfillment of His plans, the revelation of His greatness, the manifestation of His love.
Someday, we will understand why all of them left, why all those past relationships never work out. It never will because although it was part of God’s plan, they are not meant to stay. They were meant to teach us, to strengthen us, to improve us, our character, our attitude and who we really are. I hope those pain will not harden us – your heart and mine.
It’s been a while since I last posted for the #30daysbloggingchallenge. In fact, it has been more than a year since my last post. It’s not that I am busy. I think it is a personal choice. The 15th topic is very daunting. Also, I would say, a year ago, I was very different. Year 2016 was such a very challenging year for me. I have to make a lot of changes with my lifestyle since moving back to the Philippines after two years of staying in Canada. I was struggling on a lot of things, one of which is finding a new job. My finances are not that stable and life is a bit hard.
Aside from that, the topic itself is what I am avoiding. I guess not having the closure that I hoped I would get from my last relationship was difficult for me. It was something that I never imagined. It was something that I never dreamed of in my relationship. Being the perfectionist that I am, not having a closure is a prick in my bubble, sending my world and high expectations crashing to the ground. It’s like opening Pandora’s box and not knowing what disaster might strike me, what goblins and mystical “feelings” might come out, and most especially, what wounds and hurts might be opened up again. It was like poking through an almost-healed wound, seeing the cut open up, and feeling the pain all over again. That is why I decided not to post this last year. I feel I am not ready yet to expose myself for the world to judge.
I want to encourage women to embrace their own uniqueness. Because just like a rose is beautiful, so is a sunflower, so is a peony. I mean, all flowers are beautiful in their own way, and that’s like women too.
– Miranda Kerr
Location: 10,000 Roses Cafe at Day-as, Cordova, Cebu
I am working on my dreams. People might say I am so behind at my age but I believe achieving my dreams has no deadline, right? As long as I am able, I still have the chance to get it. There are times that I feel so low especially when I feel so left out. I browse through my social media accounts and all I see are photos of my friends getting married, traveling or having dinner at fine restaurants. And when I look at myself, I have nothing to boast about – I am single, jobless, and struggling to achieve a dream that seem so impossible to others.
People often ask me why I want it. I sometimes asked myself that too. I don’t have an exact answer. I cannot give a concrete response. Why do I really want to go back to Canada? I really don’t know. All I know is that God placed that desire in my heart and with that, I am holding onto the possibility of getting there in His perfect time. I am hoping that one day, I will be able to step on snowy streets, dance under the falling sakura flowers, play with golden maple leaves, and see the perfect sunset of Patricia Bay again. It may be surreal for some, impossible for many. But with a God who provides, why would I doubt?
So if my dream of going to a place that’s 10,000 kilometers away from where I am now, why would you doubt about yours? Those dreams, if you keep working on it, will eventually come true. If your dream is getting a great job, beings successful, or buying that BMW or that beach house, or finding true love, never lose hope. As long as you’re working towards it, all your efforts are not in vain. God sees your heart. He hears all those unuttered prayers and silent sighs. He feels the heaviness and your weariness. But take heart. Be courageous. This is not just your battle. This is HIS. God is fighting alongside with you. So be still. Relax. Your dream is on it’s way to reality. If today your chasing your dream, believe that one day you’ll be catching it.