My biggest fear as a single person.
When I took this 30-day blogging challenge, I didn’t go through all the blogging topics because I wanted to be spontaneous and deal with the daily topic as it comes. And today’s topic is really pressing, something that I wanted to elude or disregard for I am still in the process of convincing everyone, myself included, that being single is okay. That I am fine with being on my own.
Well, don’t get me wrong. Being single at this point in my life is AWESOME because I own my time. That is one of the best perks of being a single and independent woman. But I am not getting any younger and soon enough, the reality would hit me. I also need to have my own family, to have my own kids. I also want to experience that feeling of being called a mother.
At this point in my life, at this season where I am celebrating my being single, a nagging fear is pressing at the back of my mind. This fear that I kept on dismissing, that I have hidden at the deepest corners of my heart. I am the type of person who believe that we all deserve the best things in life, love included. I have these so-called “standards” of the person that I would want to be with forever. And the first thing that I would want for that person to possess is not intelligence nor wealth, but a huge heart where God resides. I wanted to have someone who will bring me closer to God as I get closer to him, someone who loves God more than he loves me.
Seeing how this world and present generation are being shaped, I fear that I might not be able to find this man. I am afraid that these set of “standards” will hinder me from finding someone and will keep me single for the rest of my life. I am afraid that this world has turned every single guy away from God and that no single and eligible guy will ever possess that huge heart and great love for God. I am scared that my standards are too high that no one will be able to meet but I am more afraid to lower down these standards and settle for what’s available.
Am I asking too much? Am I setting the bar too high? I guess not. I know this is not too much to ask, especially when the petition is sent through prayers to God. It helps me a lot that I have this strong relationship with Him because every prayer comes with a sense of overwhelming assurance that all these fears don’t come from God and that I have nothing to be afraid of. Even though at times I am faced with the impossible, I believe God can turn things around. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WHEN WE BELIEVE.
Lay down all your fears to God. He will comfort you.
Stay in Love! Stay in God’s love.