Posted in Epistles of the Heart

Knock! Knock! It’s Time To Wake Up

I think you have had enough and it’s time to wake up now. You never love him anymore. You only love the things and feelings that he made you experience. You miss the feeling of being with someone who treats you special and honestly, there are other men out there who can treat you better. If he loves you, he could have fought for you. Yet he gave up on you without even trying to make things work when the relationship starts to get shaky and confusing. He left you without giving you any reasons and that alone is an obvious reason to wake up. You’ve been so down and depressed these past days and it has taken it’s toll on your body. You look horrible, to be honest. You aged and look older than your age. You have neglected your body and wallowed on the sadness of your heart. It’s time to shape up like literally!!

It’s time to move on and leave all the pains behind. It’s time to look forward to what’s ahead instead of always looking back behind you. The shadows of the past will always be shadows, a formless and non-existent mass of darkness if you choose to stay in the light. Never stay in the dark or away from the light. That will only make the shadows reappear. The past cannot be undone. It will always be there. However, you can always choose to move forward and never let these pains and hurt tie a shackle in your feet. You have the option to overcome it or empower it. Never let the latter got ahead of you. Never empower your past hurt because it will enslave you. Instead, overcome it. Show these shadows who the real master is, and it’s you. The power is all in you hands. You just have to choose it, badly want it, and to never let whatever negativities pull you down.

Girl, remember this: We are all fighting our own battles. But those who emerged winners don’t always have the best past. They are usually those who happen to have the most difficult past but have become masters of these difficulties. I’ve known you better and you can do better than this. You are a fighter. Never let these pain dull your sword. Instead, use this as an additional weapon to fight what’s ahead of you.

It’s been a year. It’s but timely to leave all these hurt behind. Be happy for him that despite all that he’s been through and done, someone still love him more than you do. You will eventually find that man who will do the same for you, who will love you and treasure you more that he has ever made you feel. And if in case that man will never come to your life, never think that he could have been him only you never gave your best shot for this relationship. You did, more than anyone could ever imagine. It’s just that he failed to see it. He failed to value all the sacrifices you gave to make the relationship work. He never saw how bad you felt for bending those principles that you have kept hidden in your heart.

Knock! Knock on your head! It’s time to let go…And the perfect time is NOW!!

And one more thing, the best revenge you can ever give him is to show him that you are better, that your life is better, that you are happy and successful without him. It’s time to do those things for yourself. Do those things that make you happy.

 

Posted in Food for Thoughts

Pitter-Patters on The Roof

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She stares blankly on the pouring rain. The noise of the pitter-patters on the roof is trying to drown the voice from within. There are so many voices lately that she cannot figure out which is true and which is not. She wished she could stay curled in her bed all day, curved like a ball in the hope that doing so could lessen the emptiness she felt inside. The booming thunder cannot surpass the thuds of her heart as it beats faster and faster like raising thunderbolts across her chest. With each thud comes heaviness of breathing she cannot define. It seems like someone is trying to gag her mouth and want her dead by suffocation. Yes, death would be such a welcoming treat because it would mean silence from all the voices she cannot even understand. It would mean relief from all the emptiness inside. It would mean comfort from all the pain she kept hiding inside.

“Ahhhhhhhhh! Noooooo! Heeeeellllpppp!”

Three loud shouts came out of her mouth. And not long after, her mother rushed to her side. She’s been like that for the past three months. Panic attack is her frequent visitor. Her mother hugged her, trying to calm her down. Her shirt is soaked in sweat yet her palms are cold and white. Fear is painted across her face as if someone is trying to hurt her. As tears slowly fall from her eyes, as the heaviness of breathings starts to subside, she felt the soothing calmness of the pitter-patters on the roof.

She is a survivor and she will overcome all these madness she is currently facing. Whatever it takes, how long it may take, she will survive. Life has been bad lately. Things aren’t turning out the way she planned them to be. But she is hopeful, she will make it through.

She stares outside again but this time, no pouring rain. Instead, painted across the sky is a promise, a hope of a better, colourful tomorrow. She will still have panic attacks, that’s for sure. But death is never an option.

Life is beautiful! Never give up when problems try to pull you down. Believe that everything will be alright.

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love!

Dawn 🙂

 

Posted in Food for Thoughts

And The Leaves Start To Fall

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It is that time of the year where the days become shorter, the wind blows a little bit chiller, and the sun usually hides its face most of the days. It’s that time of the year where leaves grow from green to deeper shades of orange, the time of the year where the leaves are at their most beautiful state. Some call it Autumn, I prefer to call it Fall. It is the prelude of winter where the temperature gradually drops from double digit to single and even to below zero.

As I marvel at how the leaves change their colors, how they adopt to the change of the temperature, I find myself in awe at how this continuous and repetitive cycle of nature reminds us of how marvelously God created the Earth. The nature and its beauty constantly remind us that change is never a bad thing – that change is something that we should embrace. As the seasons change, God is reminding us that everything on this planet will come to pass. And when I say everything, I mean all things whether natural or man-made.

Seasons change and each phase brings some sense of excitement – we anticipate the first snowfall on winter, we look forward to the crisp smell of green grasses and the fragrant aroma of Spring flowers, we’re hyper-ecstatic to longer days and sun-kissed skins of Summer, and we await the beautiful colors of Fall. And I come to realize, life should always be like this, a never-ending anticipation and excitement of what is yet to come, of the amazing surprises of everyday. Life should be lived with this sense of happiness and flexibility to changes and to things life throws at us. Life should be lived with that sense of acceptance of what’s about to unfold, of what’s about to happen whether how things may take place, whether it may be on the gloomy or the brighter side.

These seasons are God’s constant reminder that what we are going through right now will never last especially those trials and difficulties that we are going through. He wants to remind us that though winter may be gloomy and cold, that calming silence of the snowfall is something that we should be thankful for and though Summer feels too warm and sticky, longer days and warmer nights are something that we should learn to enjoy.

Life has so much to offer. Likewise we can learn so much with what these Season’s changes offer. We only need to be more open to these changes, to be more flexible and willing to adapt to any discomforts these may bring and to appreciate the beauty of these changes in our lives.

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love!

Dawn 🙂

PHOTO CREDIT: Destination Logan County

Posted in Food for Thoughts

Throw Your Cares To The Wind

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“I’m throwing everything to the wind – all my hopes, my cares, my dreams, my ambitions. I am no longer concerned about what will happen in the future.” These are my words. But it doesn’t mean that I am losing hope nor I am giving up on my dreams. It means I am laying them down to the Maker and Perfecter of my future and casting all my cares on Him.

Some of us have lived a planned and well-laid out life. I myself have been guilty of intense planning, not to mention about worrying about what the future may be. When someone would ask me what I will be 5years after, I would definitely answer the question without batting my lashes. I know the answer back then. But now at 28, the past two years has changed me. When I would be asked what would I be five years from now, all I could give is “I really have no idea.” You see the life I was planning to have is just all in my mind, a fraction of my hyper-imaginative brain cells.

For two years, I live a life full of surprises. It seems like everything that has happened has no pattern, no elaborate plan, and no definite purpose. But that’s just how I see it. I have faith in God and I know that all these things that are happening is my life is God’s way of knocking me down and waking me up from all those nonsense planning and endless worrying.

I am a worrier. I worry a lot. When I was small, I worried about what I will get in my exams and quizzes so I make it a point that I have a complete copy of all the notes before the exam and I made reviews on our lessons. When I was in High School, I worry about what I will take in college or where will I study. When I finished college, I worry if I would get a job or where will I find one. It’s an endless battle of future thoughts and preparations that when I look back to my life now, I regretted all the worrying that I made. It has made my life so boring. I feel like I have lived my entire life inside a shell, a protective covering of all my plans and future preparations that I end up living in the future instead of enjoying the present.

And so, for two years, I decide to jump into the unknown and I realized that living a life where you are not in control is enjoyable. You get surprises everyday and you always end the day with a thankful heart that you survived. Because in the first place, these lives that we have right now are really not ours, we are just stewards of this earth, a temporary living creature that would soon perish and die. God has placed us here to live a purpose that He intended for us. It is God’s plan that we are here and He wants us to enjoy this life because sooner or later we will leave this place. And what’s sadder than dying is to die without even being able to live a full life.

So throw your cares to the wind. Let tomorrow worry about itself. Believe that the Great Maker, the maker of Heaven and Earth will never let you suffer. He will take care of you. Enjoy this gift of the present. Never let the past haunt you nor the future troubled you. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Trust that God holds that future in His hands and He will make everything perfect according to His plans. So throw all those future plans away because God has a better, more secure, and 100% fool-proof plan for your life.

Stay in Love. Stay in God’s Love

Sarah Dawn 🙂

PHOTO CREDIT: National Geographic

Posted in Rhythms and Rhymes

Shattered

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And I was crying alone tonight
i’ve been wasting all my life
i’ve been dreaming all this time
Thinking you are mine.
Please save me in this solitary state
i don’t wanna be alone tonight
i don’t wanna fall in desperation
i wanted to be whole again

This feeling of loneliness i feel
I really want this to end
i want it to fade away
Along with the hurts that you caused me
Why can’t you not see?
All the tears running down my face
You came into my life just to hurt me
I wish I knew, wish I really knew

How could you ever betray me
How could you ver hurt me
You promised me happiness
And all i get are tears and broken promises
You came into my life to ruin it
I wish I see it coming
You came into my life to hurt me
I wish I knew, wish I really knew

And now I resolve to forget you
I will shout and cry to let go of you
Let all the tears wash all my pain
Let all the sighs heal all the throbbing
I may live in agony after you left me
You came into my life just to hurt me
But now i learned; now i knew
I will stant up again
And this time, I’m new!

Posted in Food for Thoughts

I Love Him But…

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How can we forget someone? This question always haunts us, especially if those persons that we want to forget have greatly made an impact in our lives. But how can we really forget someone? The answer is simple: Don’t think about them! Easier said than done, you might tell me. To be honest, it’s not difficult to forget. What’s hard is to accept the reality that there are things that happened that never in our wild imaginations did we expect to happen. Sometimes, what we thought as a perfect dream instantly turn into a nightmare and we cannot find any reasons why these happen. We are left asking ourselves “why these happen?” or “Have we done something wrong?”

But, how can you really forget? How can you eliminate someone who has been in your heart and mind all these years? Simple. Don’t think about him/her! It is so basic, isn’t it? You can do a lot of things rather than think of them. You can go out with your friends, focus on your life, make yourself successful. Watch happy and funny movies. Travel to places you want to go. Explore new things and discover great beginnings. Stop listening to sad music, those songs that would remind you of him. Avoid doing things that you used to do together or go to places that you both hang out. Remember: We tend to forget what is truly in our mind when we think of something else. Think of things that you want to do. Think of those person that you have right now, those that give happiness and joy to your life, those people that want to see that smile in your face again. They may not totally ease the pain that you have in your heart right now, but you are still blessed because you still have someone who will be with you in this painful time of your life.

You know what? Sometimes, it’s us that make the situation more complicated. You’re wondering why you cannot forget him. You’re wondering why you cannot move on. Don’t think that you CAN’T. Don’t think that you cannot do it. Because you need to believe in yourself that you CAN. You can stand up again. You can bring that smile back on your face again. If you just willed it, it will happen. No one can help you but yourself. Even though there are a lot of people around you who are willing to help you, if you are not willing to help yourself nothing will happen. Everything that they’ve done, all the efforts that they have exerted to help you is futile.

If you always think that something is so hard to do, you will really find it difficult to do. If you keep on thinking that you will forget him, the more that you will not forget about him. You know why? Because you’re only saying it but you’re not putting it into action. Well, let’s admit that it is really hard to forget, to move on, to let go. But bare in mind that there are countless of ways to be happy, billion of reasons to live a life full of joy and gladness. If you think about all these things rather than him, you will eventually accept that he is gone.

Don’t lose hope. These pain will all come to pass. You will soon have that beautiful smile in your face. All the hurts that you feel right now will ease. You will be able to sleep well again and have happy dreams again. You will be able to create a new vision, a future with someone who will understand, care and love you. Someone who will make you happy not just with his words but will show it through his actions. Because, somewhere somehow, there is that someone who is rightfully made for you. He’s just a bit late in coming into your life.

Let me tell this to you again and again: “Be Happy!” because you deserve to be happy. You are made to be happy. Remember that there is also someone who felt bad and sad because you are miserable. He is hurting because you are in pain. You may not notice him now because your eyes are blurry because of all the tears, but time will come that you will get to know him. He will come to wipe away all of your tears and ease all your pain.

Don’t lose hope.

Take time to wait for him.

Be patient while you wait.

And remember: There is no other cure for a suffering heart but TIME.

Stay in Love! Stay in God’s Love!

Dawn 🙂

Author’s Note:

I’ve also written a post “Haunted By A Beautiful Nightmare” based on a Youtube Video “Mga Kwento ni Roger sa Pagong”. This is another translation of another video from him. For more of his video/voice over, visit Youtube.com