Posted in Epistles of the Heart

Knock! Knock! It’s Time To Wake Up

I think you have had enough and it’s time to wake up now. You never love him anymore. You only love the things and feelings that he made you experience. You miss the feeling of being with someone who treats you special and honestly, there are other men out there who can treat you better. If he loves you, he could have fought for you. Yet he gave up on you without even trying to make things work when the relationship starts to get shaky and confusing. He left you without giving you any reasons and that alone is an obvious reason to wake up. You’ve been so down and depressed these past days and it has taken it’s toll on your body. You look horrible, to be honest. You aged and look older than your age. You have neglected your body and wallowed on the sadness of your heart. It’s time to shape up like literally!!

It’s time to move on and leave all the pains behind. It’s time to look forward to what’s ahead instead of always looking back behind you. The shadows of the past will always be shadows, a formless and non-existent mass of darkness if you choose to stay in the light. Never stay in the dark or away from the light. That will only make the shadows reappear. The past cannot be undone. It will always be there. However, you can always choose to move forward and never let these pains and hurt tie a shackle in your feet. You have the option to overcome it or empower it. Never let the latter got ahead of you. Never empower your past hurt because it will enslave you. Instead, overcome it. Show these shadows who the real master is, and it’s you. The power is all in you hands. You just have to choose it, badly want it, and to never let whatever negativities pull you down.

Girl, remember this: We are all fighting our own battles. But those who emerged winners don’t always have the best past. They are usually those who happen to have the most difficult past but have become masters of these difficulties. I’ve known you better and you can do better than this. You are a fighter. Never let these pain dull your sword. Instead, use this as an additional weapon to fight what’s ahead of you.

It’s been a year. It’s but timely to leave all these hurt behind. Be happy for him that despite all that he’s been through and done, someone still love him more than you do. You will eventually find that man who will do the same for you, who will love you and treasure you more that he has ever made you feel. And if in case that man will never come to your life, never think that he could have been him only you never gave your best shot for this relationship. You did, more than anyone could ever imagine. It’s just that he failed to see it. He failed to value all the sacrifices you gave to make the relationship work. He never saw how bad you felt for bending those principles that you have kept hidden in your heart.

Knock! Knock on your head! It’s time to let go…And the perfect time is NOW!!

And one more thing, the best revenge you can ever give him is to show him that you are better, that your life is better, that you are happy and successful without him. It’s time to do those things for yourself. Do those things that make you happy.

 

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Pitter-Patters on The Roof

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She stares blankly on the pouring rain. The noise of the pitter-patters on the roof is trying to drown the voice from within. There are so many voices lately that she cannot figure out which is true and which is not. She wished she could stay curled in her bed all day, curved like a ball in the hope that doing so could lessen the emptiness she felt inside. The booming thunder cannot surpass the thuds of her heart as it beats faster and faster like raising thunderbolts across her chest. With each thud comes heaviness of breathing she cannot define. It seems like someone is trying to gag her mouth and want her dead by suffocation. Yes, death would be such a welcoming treat because it would mean silence from all the voices she cannot even understand. It would mean relief from all the emptiness inside. It would mean comfort from all the pain she kept hiding inside.

“Ahhhhhhhhh! Noooooo! Heeeeellllpppp!”

Three loud shouts came out of her mouth. And not long after, her mother rushed to her side. She’s been like that for the past three months. Panic attack is her frequent visitor. Her mother hugged her, trying to calm her down. Her shirt is soaked in sweat yet her palms are cold and white. Fear is painted across her face as if someone is trying to hurt her. As tears slowly fall from her eyes, as the heaviness of breathings starts to subside, she felt the soothing calmness of the pitter-patters on the roof.

She is a survivor and she will overcome all these madness she is currently facing. Whatever it takes, how long it may take, she will survive. Life has been bad lately. Things aren’t turning out the way she planned them to be. But she is hopeful, she will make it through.

She stares outside again but this time, no pouring rain. Instead, painted across the sky is a promise, a hope of a better, colourful tomorrow. She will still have panic attacks, that’s for sure. But death is never an option.

Life is beautiful! Never give up when problems try to pull you down. Believe that everything will be alright.

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love!

Dawn 🙂

 

Posted in Food for Thoughts

It Takes A Man

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It takes a strong man to love an independent woman.

When she’s been single almost all her life
When she never bats her lashes when she repairs her clogged sink
When she makes decisions on her on
And forget to consider your thoughts about it
When she is already happy with the life she has now
When it seems she never needed a man on her side

Love her and never let her go
She has become who she is because life demands her to
Because she needs to survive on her own
Because she has to stand up on her decisions
Because she has to learn to be happy, to be truly happy with her life
Because she has no idea that you will eventually come to her life.

It takes a persistent man to love a stubborn woman.

When she’s so used to always having her way on things
When she stubbornly stand up for what she believed in
When she refuses to bend the principles she always uphold
And chooses to let go of you than to lose herself
When she fights against you over petty things
When it seems difficult for her to accept your ways

Love her and never let her go
She has become who she is because life demands her to
Because she’s always been the master of her own life
Because she’s used to having no one to stand up for her but herself
Because these beliefs and principles make her who she is, a beautiful and strong woman
Because sometimes, petty things aren’t petty for her at all.

It takes a humble man to love strong-willed woman.

When she become workaholic and over-achiever
When she usually goes out of her way just to get things
When sometimes, her smartness and intelligence overpower yours
And her achievements seem greater than what you attain
When it seems everything she has and all that she achieved is intimidating
When her aura radiates power and dominance

Love her and never let her go
She has become who she is because life demands her to
Because she has to work her ass out just to survive this dog-eat-dog world alone
Because she believes that an extra step goes a long way
Because she has to embody intelligence and confidence to gain respect
And prove that even if she’s an XX-specie, she’s not weak
Because sometimes these achievements give her validation
Because she has to prove to everyone that she can take care of herself.

It takes a selfless man to truly love a complicated (sometimes selfish) woman.

When she is so independent that sometimes it seems she doesn’t need you
When she has become so stubborn and hardheaded
And those fights over petty things seems endless
When her will is so strong, it clashes with yours
And nagging become part of her daily routine
When you feel like she’s so full of herself
When you feel like giving up on her

Love her and never let her go
She needs love and affection too
She needs someone to take care of her
Someone who’ll hug her amidst her fears
Someone who’ll tell her I love you
Someone she can say “I love you too”
Someone who can stand her quirks
And kisses her supple cheeks
And when she’s down, will hold her hand
And lovingly help her to stand
Someone who will see beyond
Her achievements and accomplishments
Beyond her intellect or independence
Beyond her stubbornness
Beyond all of her flaws
Love her, just love her
And never let her go.

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love!

Dawn 🙂

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Throw Your Cares To The Wind

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“I’m throwing everything to the wind – all my hopes, my cares, my dreams, my ambitions. I am no longer concerned about what will happen in the future.” These are my words. But it doesn’t mean that I am losing hope nor I am giving up on my dreams. It means I am laying them down to the Maker and Perfecter of my future and casting all my cares on Him.

Some of us have lived a planned and well-laid out life. I myself have been guilty of intense planning, not to mention about worrying about what the future may be. When someone would ask me what I will be 5years after, I would definitely answer the question without batting my lashes. I know the answer back then. But now at 28, the past two years has changed me. When I would be asked what would I be five years from now, all I could give is “I really have no idea.” You see the life I was planning to have is just all in my mind, a fraction of my hyper-imaginative brain cells.

For two years, I live a life full of surprises. It seems like everything that has happened has no pattern, no elaborate plan, and no definite purpose. But that’s just how I see it. I have faith in God and I know that all these things that are happening is my life is God’s way of knocking me down and waking me up from all those nonsense planning and endless worrying.

I am a worrier. I worry a lot. When I was small, I worried about what I will get in my exams and quizzes so I make it a point that I have a complete copy of all the notes before the exam and I made reviews on our lessons. When I was in High School, I worry about what I will take in college or where will I study. When I finished college, I worry if I would get a job or where will I find one. It’s an endless battle of future thoughts and preparations that when I look back to my life now, I regretted all the worrying that I made. It has made my life so boring. I feel like I have lived my entire life inside a shell, a protective covering of all my plans and future preparations that I end up living in the future instead of enjoying the present.

And so, for two years, I decide to jump into the unknown and I realized that living a life where you are not in control is enjoyable. You get surprises everyday and you always end the day with a thankful heart that you survived. Because in the first place, these lives that we have right now are really not ours, we are just stewards of this earth, a temporary living creature that would soon perish and die. God has placed us here to live a purpose that He intended for us. It is God’s plan that we are here and He wants us to enjoy this life because sooner or later we will leave this place. And what’s sadder than dying is to die without even being able to live a full life.

So throw your cares to the wind. Let tomorrow worry about itself. Believe that the Great Maker, the maker of Heaven and Earth will never let you suffer. He will take care of you. Enjoy this gift of the present. Never let the past haunt you nor the future troubled you. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Trust that God holds that future in His hands and He will make everything perfect according to His plans. So throw all those future plans away because God has a better, more secure, and 100% fool-proof plan for your life.

Stay in Love. Stay in God’s Love

Sarah Dawn 🙂

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When He Closed Those Doors

Closed doors are blessings too!

I wake up one day with the feeling that everything has been taken away from me. I lost my job, I broke up with my boyfriend, I have so little savings, and I am four months away from my work permit expiration which means going home with barely nothing. I would be hypocrite if I would say that I am okay coz I am not. I think no sane person could actually be fine with all these things that are happenings in one’s life. I would sometimes stare at the ceiling of my room in the middle of the night thinking of what could have possible gone wrong. I would sometimes find myself asking questions that I have no idea how to answer. Why did we broke up? Why did I got laid off? Why did I become so complacent with my savings not thinking that I would one day lost my job or my contract will not be renewed by my employer? But after all the thinking, all I know is that I will never be able to bring back the broken relationship, the lost job, or the necessary amount of savings. And with that realization, I became aware of what God wants me to realized and understand, and that is, His plans are better than mine and that He will always close some doors to keep me from being hurt.

Yes, I lost my job but I know I will find a better one. Or better yet, maybe there is a better job waiting for me when I go home. I may be earning four times as much as I was earning back then but the question is, am I happy with all these money? What is it that I always want to do for myself? I was back to my original dream, to be able to find a job that will not hinder nor limit my time as I offer it to the Lord through dancing. I may be earning a lot now but looking at my relationship with Hm for the past two years, it was never growing and healthy. In fact, it’s malnourished and dying.

Yes, I am heartbroken now. But the question is, will I be happier with a man who wants me to do something that I am not willing to do? Who argues with my faith in God? Who questions the principles and beliefs that I have kept for 27 years? Does doing”it” guarantee that we will still be together now?And will it assure me that he will be the person that will take me to the altar? Yes, I am hurt. But I’d rather lose him than lose my relationship with God. I’d rather get my heart broken than be with a man that doesn’t respect what I believe and what I always stand for. I’d rather get my heart broken than be with a man who will make me forget God, my First Love.

Yes, I may be going home with little money than what I was expecting but then, money isn’t everything. I may be going home with so little digits on my bank account but I will never go home empty-handed. I will surely bring home with me memories and learning that I will forever keep in my heart. I have so much fun and adventure for the past two years that going home now won’t mean I am at a losing end. There’s no such thing as losing in  the game of life. It’s always winning or learning. I may not be that successful in this endeavour but I will never say that I lost in this level of my life. I only get stronger as the wind gets fiercer. I only get braver when I see waves as high as the mountains. And I will stand firmer because I know amidst all these, God is with me. I have chosen to remain under the protection and the safe embrace of my first love. And I know that under His care, all is well.

Keep the faith. God closes doors so that we will be able to advance to the next level of bigger and more abundant blessings. He closes doors because it is His way of pushing us to higher grounds and new territories. Embrace the suffering. Savour the pain because it’s God’s way of saying, “My child, I have to hurt you so that I can bring out the best in you. I have to break you so that my strength will be manifested in you. I have closed this door because if I haven’t done it, You might have suffered more pain.  I am pushing you away from your comfort zone because you are becoming more comfortable in it and I feel like you don’t want to move to the next chapter of your life anymore. I have allowed all these because that is the only way that you will receive the blessing that I have prepared for you. I have to do this because I LOVE YOU!!”

Stay in love! Stay in God’s Love

Sarah Dawn 🙂

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Life is always beautiful, no matter what!

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Life is a constant struggle. It is a huge arena where people are challenged and only those who are strong survive. Life’s challenges and difficulties sometimes, if not always, knock us and slow us down, hindering us from getting into that destination that we are eying for. In this constant struggle, there are others who chose to step on you, cheat on you, lie to us, and even stab our back just to get ahead of us. Remember that a game isn’t fun without competitors. And life is never enjoyable without these pains. It is during these times of difficulties, challenges, pains, and struggles that we become stronger, wiser, braver, and more ready to take on greater, bigger, and heavier tests in life.

I want you to know that no matter what you are going through right now, remember that you are only going “through” it. It is never permanent and will soon came to pass. Whatever struggles you are facing right now, how difficult those challenges may be, bear in mind that Someone out there is still in control, is ALWAYS in control. While there is a Supreme Being who is holding our future, there are also people around us that we can always count on during these dark and painful times of our life. Focus on the good things and the great people. Hold on to life until the pain ends. Hope for something greater and bigger once you’ve conquered this point in your life. Use your momentum, and bounce back higher.

Keep the faith.

Life is beautiful!

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love.

Sarah Dawn 🙂

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Mirror

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I stare upon a lonely girl
Who wore a fake smile all year
She has that huge grin on her face
Thinking sadness, that grin can erase.
I stare upon a lonely girl
Who hid the drop of every tear
Behind her jokes and loud laughter
Are troubles she couldn’t bear.
I stare upon a lonely girl
Who wished there’s someone out there
Who would hold her tight each night
And whisper everything will be alright.
I stare upon a lonely girl
Who’s fighting all of her fears
Now she closes her eyes
She counted one, two, three
And as the star falls down from the sky
She whispers her wish with a sigh
That may love finds its way
Through all of these cruelty.

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