Posted in Epistles of the Heart

Icy Walls Broken Down

She built her walls so strong no one can break through it. She built her walls so high hoping no one can climb over it. When she got her heart broken, she vowed to never let her heart be smashed again, to never let anyone penetrate her walls again. She was okay for quite some time. She has learned to stand on her own again. She has returned to her solo flight mode, eating out alone and strolling the malls on her own, enjoying her own company. She was okay – or so she thought she was. She was so confident that her refuge, her ground is safe and secure.

You came unexpectedly. You were boring – lacking depth. She finds having small talks with you agonizing. She was about to give up on you but someone told her, “Hey, why don’t you give him a chance. Maybe he’s just gaining his footing.” And so she told herself, “Okay! One more try.”

The days passed and she gets to know you better. She gets to know who the real you is, your struggles, the difficulties you’ve been through, the heartaches that shattered you million times. She admired your belief in love, your faith in humanity and the goodness of the human heart. You’ve endured so much pain and had gone through a lot of difficulties growing up yet you remain kind-hearted. Never did you let all those pains and sufferings from hardening your heart. And here she is, with just a teeny-tiny bit of pain from the past and she was retreating to her cave again, she was hiding behind her walls, she was shutting everyone out. She admired how you still believe in love, in happy endings, in #forever even if you were cheated on, betrayed and hurt. She cannot believe that there ever exists someone who is so kind and loving as you are even after everything that you’ve been through.

iStock_000018767461XSmallShe never realized that her walls weren’t strong enough until one day, she just felt it melting and crumbling down. She wasn’t prepared for the strong earthquake, the tremendous shake that shattered her walls and broken down her defenses. You’ve turned her walls into sheets of ice making her realized how cold her heart is. And the warmth of your heart slowly melted them away. She was left vulnerable and unsafe again. She has opened her heart to you without her knowing it. Little did she know, you have slowly made a space in her heart. For her, your absence is uncomfortable; your silence is very painful. She was really scared. You are so like her and she is you in most aspects of your beliefs and principles in life. But one thing she loves about you is that she can be who she is, the goofy, funny, carefree little girl that has been hiding inside a strong and independent woman. She could be Ms. Clingy. She could be crazy. She could be funny and weird and most of all, she could laugh without limits, not thinking whether it’s prim and proper or not. She can be who she is when she is with you.

She woke up one day and realized that you’ve already created a personal space in her heart. You already occupied a portion of her heart and without you in it, she felt empty and incomplete.

And she just woke up one day, walls broken, unsafe, uncomfortable,  vulnerable and in love…

You broke her walls. You shattered her defenses…

But you built a wall of love around her heart. You created a steady stream of happiness in her life. She will be forever thankful to you for showing her how wonderful it is to love and to be loved again. For giving her the privilege to feel this kind of feeling, this euphoria of blissful happiness. For loving her and for making her understand why it never worked out with those from her past. And she will always be thankful to those who left you because if they stayed, she will not have the chance to be with you. She is very grateful for your coming into her life in the most unexpected, unimaginable way ever.

Your arms and your loving embrace is her safe refuge now. She doesn’t need walls. Your love is enough to keep her safe.


Stay in Love. Stay in God’s Love  ❤

Sarah Dawn 🙂









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Where Does Love Go When It Dies


If the heart is the place where love comes,
Then where does it go when it dies?
Back to the heart where it comes from?
Or turn into tears in the eyes?

But even if one knew the answer
What would one possibly gain
Would the knowledge of where love has gone through
Ease the heartaches, the pain and the sorrow.

Why is it one cannot quite realize
What a blessing this true love can be
Must one love to know it it priceless?
Must one be blinded before one can see?

Ah! Where does love go when it leaves us?
This question will always remain
For we will know the answer
Until we love again.


I happened to have found this composition somewhere in my old files. I cannot recall writing it so I cannot really take credit to it. This is written in a grungy bond paper through a typewriter. I can’t imagine how old this may have been composed given the manner of how this was written. But nonetheless, this is such a beautiful poem that I can’t resist not to publish. It has made me asked myself too. Where does love go when it dies? Where does it go when it leave us? Or does love really leave and die?

I think love never leave one’s heart nor it dies. It remains (1 Cor 13:13b) forever. However, the pain, the heartache, the sorrow – they usually overpower love.And when they rule our hearts, we tend to believe that our love dies. They say there is a thin line between love and hate and one cannot exist without the other. Therefore, hate cannot exists without love and so is the latter without the previous. Bottomline: LOVE REMAINS FOREVER.

Stay in love. Stay in God’s love.

Sarah Dawn 🙂


Posted in Epistles of the Heart

Knock! Knock! It’s Time To Wake Up

I think you have had enough and it’s time to wake up now. You never love him anymore. You only love the things and feelings that he made you experience. You miss the feeling of being with someone who treats you special and honestly, there are other men out there who can treat you better. If he loves you, he could have fought for you. Yet he gave up on you without even trying to make things work when the relationship starts to get shaky and confusing. He left you without giving you any reasons and that alone is an obvious reason to wake up. You’ve been so down and depressed these past days and it has taken it’s toll on your body. You look horrible, to be honest. You aged and look older than your age. You have neglected your body and wallowed on the sadness of your heart. It’s time to shape up like literally!!

It’s time to move on and leave all the pains behind. It’s time to look forward to what’s ahead instead of always looking back behind you. The shadows of the past will always be shadows, a formless and non-existent mass of darkness if you choose to stay in the light. Never stay in the dark or away from the light. That will only make the shadows reappear. The past cannot be undone. It will always be there. However, you can always choose to move forward and never let these pains and hurt tie a shackle in your feet. You have the option to overcome it or empower it. Never let the latter got ahead of you. Never empower your past hurt because it will enslave you. Instead, overcome it. Show these shadows who the real master is, and it’s you. The power is all in you hands. You just have to choose it, badly want it, and to never let whatever negativities pull you down.

Girl, remember this: We are all fighting our own battles. But those who emerged winners don’t always have the best past. They are usually those who happen to have the most difficult past but have become masters of these difficulties. I’ve known you better and you can do better than this. You are a fighter. Never let these pain dull your sword. Instead, use this as an additional weapon to fight what’s ahead of you.

It’s been a year. It’s but timely to leave all these hurt behind. Be happy for him that despite all that he’s been through and done, someone still love him more than you do. You will eventually find that man who will do the same for you, who will love you and treasure you more that he has ever made you feel. And if in case that man will never come to your life, never think that he could have been him only you never gave your best shot for this relationship. You did, more than anyone could ever imagine. It’s just that he failed to see it. He failed to value all the sacrifices you gave to make the relationship work. He never saw how bad you felt for bending those principles that you have kept hidden in your heart.

Knock! Knock on your head! It’s time to let go…And the perfect time is NOW!!

And one more thing, the best revenge you can ever give him is to show him that you are better, that your life is better, that you are happy and successful without him. It’s time to do those things for yourself. Do those things that make you happy.


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Day 1: Your response to everyone’s favorite question: “And why are YOU still single?”


Your response to everyone’s favorite question: “And why are YOU still single?”

This question has been around lately, especially around gatherings this Holiday Season. It has been asked in different forms and variations but still invoke the same meaning, not to mention the tone to which this question implies. I find this question rather funny at this point in my life. Although at first, I must admit that the question carries a tone that somewhat implies like something is wrong with me especially when the construction of the question goes something like “you are such a lovely and intelligent person. But why are you still single?.” It seems to imply that I’m PERFECT yet I’m incapable of having a successful relationship, let alone having one. Well here’s the Breaking News: I’m not perfect. And inasmuch as I want my life to, like how the society has created a perfect  picture of how a woman in my age suppose to be, I can’t because I don’t want to live a life patterned by the ideals of this world.

At this point in my life, I find this question funny yet irritating. I couldn’t fully understand as to where this question is really coming from. Like why would other people be so upset if I am still single. Why would they be so obsessed about thinking what’s wrong with me or what is the reason why I’m still single? Pardon me but why can’t they just mind their own business? In all honesty, I want to give that response every time someone would ask me. Like why would they care? I just can’t seem to voice that kind of response in a tone that you’re probably thinking right now, especially around people I highly respect.

But I think I have to ponder on this question rather thoroughly this time. This blogging challenge have thought-provoking questions, some of which I am trying to avoid by responding to it with sarcasm than honesty. So why am I still single? Honestly? I really don’t know. I believe everyone has that desire to be with someone, to have someone they can go home to. I, myself, am no exemption. But sometimes, there are circumstances that will hinder the fulfillment of our inner desires at the moment no matter how badly we want it to happen. I know that God’s timing is always perfect. He is neither late nor one-minute ahead (Ecclesiastes 3:1).

So back to the question at hand. Why am I really single? If I could give one honest answer it would be that I’m too picky and too stubborn to just settle for what’s convenient or what’s available. I am obsessed with fairytale endings and I know I am a princess who deserves to have one. I don’t want to just be in a relationship because I am lonely or is in need of a rebound from a current failed relationship. I wanted my love life to be crafted according to God’s masterplan that I refuse to be in a relationship which I feel isn’t part of His plan. If only I could give this kind of answer. If only people would understand where I stand on this issue in my life.

But I guess, some people will always be the people that this society has shaped. And this world will always be packed with those kind of people who would stare at others accusingly, thinking that there’s something wrong with them just because they’re still single. So never lower your standard just for you to fit into the standard of this world. YOU WILL NEVER FIT INTO THIS WORLD’S STANDARDS. This world will always look for something that is wrong in you. You will always be too white or too dark-skinned, too tall or too short, too fat or too skinny, and you will never be perfect if you’re not a SIZE 2. So live according to your own standards instead. And never let the glitter of faux diamonds hinder your real and authentic glow. Stand up and shine coz you have a fine jewel in your crown.

So the next time someone would ask me why I’m still single, I would say that I haven’t meet the right one who will change my status just yet. As what The Single Woman always said, “You’re too fabulous to settle.”And yes, I am!

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love!

Dawn 🙂


Today is Day 1 of The Single Woman’s 30-Day Blogging Challenge. Feel free to do the challenge with me. You may also want to mention me in your posts (using this link: so that I also get to read your thoughts about the topics.

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It Takes A Man


It takes a strong man to love an independent woman.

When she’s been single almost all her life
When she never bats her lashes when she repairs her clogged sink
When she makes decisions on her on
And forget to consider your thoughts about it
When she is already happy with the life she has now
When it seems she never needed a man on her side

Love her and never let her go
She has become who she is because life demands her to
Because she needs to survive on her own
Because she has to stand up on her decisions
Because she has to learn to be happy, to be truly happy with her life
Because she has no idea that you will eventually come to her life.

It takes a persistent man to love a stubborn woman.

When she’s so used to always having her way on things
When she stubbornly stand up for what she believed in
When she refuses to bend the principles she always uphold
And chooses to let go of you than to lose herself
When she fights against you over petty things
When it seems difficult for her to accept your ways

Love her and never let her go
She has become who she is because life demands her to
Because she’s always been the master of her own life
Because she’s used to having no one to stand up for her but herself
Because these beliefs and principles make her who she is, a beautiful and strong woman
Because sometimes, petty things aren’t petty for her at all.

It takes a humble man to love strong-willed woman.

When she become workaholic and over-achiever
When she usually goes out of her way just to get things
When sometimes, her smartness and intelligence overpower yours
And her achievements seem greater than what you attain
When it seems everything she has and all that she achieved is intimidating
When her aura radiates power and dominance

Love her and never let her go
She has become who she is because life demands her to
Because she has to work her ass out just to survive this dog-eat-dog world alone
Because she believes that an extra step goes a long way
Because she has to embody intelligence and confidence to gain respect
And prove that even if she’s an XX-specie, she’s not weak
Because sometimes these achievements give her validation
Because she has to prove to everyone that she can take care of herself.

It takes a selfless man to truly love a complicated (sometimes selfish) woman.

When she is so independent that sometimes it seems she doesn’t need you
When she has become so stubborn and hardheaded
And those fights over petty things seems endless
When her will is so strong, it clashes with yours
And nagging become part of her daily routine
When you feel like she’s so full of herself
When you feel like giving up on her

Love her and never let her go
She needs love and affection too
She needs someone to take care of her
Someone who’ll hug her amidst her fears
Someone who’ll tell her I love you
Someone she can say “I love you too”
Someone who can stand her quirks
And kisses her supple cheeks
And when she’s down, will hold her hand
And lovingly help her to stand
Someone who will see beyond
Her achievements and accomplishments
Beyond her intellect or independence
Beyond her stubbornness
Beyond all of her flaws
Love her, just love her
And never let her go.

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love!

Dawn 🙂


Posted in Food for Thoughts

Your Happy Ending Is On Its Way

My friends usually call me “hopeless romantic”. I would say that I am, in a way. I still believe in the old fashioned, the giving of flowers, chocolates, and stuffed toys; sending of hand-written love letters, and just kissing under the starry skies. I still watch movies like The Notebook (all-time favorite), Serendipity, PS I Love You, Message in a Bottle, A Walk To Remember, and the likes. I still fall in love with the characters in my books, the knight in shining armor in my fairytales. But I am a modern day Hopeless Romantic. I have accepted the fact that technology has greatly influenced the lives of the people in the 21st Century and it is but necessary to adapt to that change in order to survive. But deep inside me, I felt the pang of jealousy when I would imagine how my father courted my mother. How people of the 90’s value and give so much respect on the “boyfriend-girlfriend” relationship.

The youth of today has greatly evolved that for them everything is always instant. But there is never a single thing in this modern world that’s instant. Instant noodles take 3 minutes to prepare, instant coffee takes five. Fast foods are still not “fast”. There is still that waiting time, a process of waiting, the preparation process. Because no matter how fast-paced we want our lives to be, we still cannot deny the fact that there are still things that are more enjoyable when we let it set and give it some time to process. Slow-cooked foods are still the best! Riding on a bicycle is still enjoyable. Writing your thoughts in ink and paper is still satisfying. You see, in this technology-driven lifestyle that we grow to love, there are still things that shouldn’t be instant. There are still things that need time to bloom, to ‘incubate’, to process, to evolve. And that holds true to our Happy Ending. Happy endings need not be rushed. We want it to be the best ending EVER, then we must learn that Happy Endings are way too different from “Instant” Endings.

I am a hopeless romantic. And this is a message to all those hopeless romantics out there that still believe in a Happy Ending.


Believe that your Happy Ending is still a work-in-process. God is the best writer, and He writes the best Love Story. Believe that your Romeo is out there and is still undergoing tune ups and machine overhaul to perfectly fit the princess that you are or vise versa. Maybe your princess is still doing course trainings on fine dining and royal etiquette. So never give up that faith that the Father in Heave has been slow-cooking your super yummy love story.

Wait with Patience

Yes, cliché as it may sound, but “Patience is a virtue.” And although waiting is a waste for an Industrial Engineer, waiting for the Best Ending Ever is never a waste. And there is no greater reward than to be able to have that Happy Ending without attachments. Yes again. I just said attachment. Because there are some of us who are not patient enough to wait and decided to look for it instead. And there you go, you just end up getting pregnant or being an instant father. You see, God doesn’t want you to mess up with His kitchen coz you might put a wrong ingredient and the entire recipe goes down the drain. God wants you to sit back and relax while He is still preparing that awesome love story.

Never Settle

In relation to our being impatient, we sometimes decide to grab whoever comes our way. Opppsss!!! Don’t do that. Never settle for something that’s second best. Just because he or she is what you currently have doesn’t mean that they are the ones that God wants you to have. Remember: “No messing up in God’s kitchen.”You don’t settle for water when you can have the finest wine. And when I say finest, it has been through the aging process for a long time. So if you feel like you will not have your Happy Ending and you are in the verge of giving up, think again. You’ve waited this long, you’ve come this far. Will you just settle for second best? Come on!! You’re better than that. Never settle. PERIOD.

Busy Yourself

Sometimes, waiting becomes an agony when we keep on thinking about what we’re waiting for. Waiting becomes a longing and sometimes the feeling become so intense. The intensity of that longing sometimes cloud our better judgment and we end up settling on the second best. So busy yourself. Don’t think too much about your Happy Ending and why it has not started to unfold. That would only make you cranky and you will just find yourself making stupid decisions you might regret in the end. So busy yourself on things that would make you better. Follow your dreams, do things that would make you happy and fulfilled. BUT never lose hope and sight of that Happy Ending. Make it your inspiration to make yourself better and fit for them. God has prepared that person to be the best. It is but fitting that you should make yourself worthy for them too. You want a good man, you should be a better woman. You want a career woman, you should at least have a decent job. You want a trustworthy partner? Ask yourself if you are worth trusting for. So while you wait, focus on perfecting yourself.


God holds our future in His hand. He is the perfecter of all our plans. He is the Ultimate Giver and He will surely provide our needs. And when I say needs, that involves the type of Happy Ending that we need. Sometimes, we are so focused on having a family, building a home, and finding our soulmate that we lose sight of what God wants for us. Maybe God’s idea of a Happy Ending is not is parallel with what’s in our mind. So pray. Ask for His guidance and revelation. Maybe that deepest longing is not something romantic but a deeper love for service and stewardship. Pray for His wisdom, that He will revel His plans of your Happy Ending.

Sometimes, we are so focused on what we want that we fail to see what God wants in our lives. Oftentimes, we crave for what is ideal of this world and we fail to see that we are not made for this world. We are made to worship God and seeing Him happy is the Best Ending that we could ever long for. Maybe God would be happy when we are able to build a family of our own because that is your role in the bigger picture that He is painting. But also, your Happy Ending could be in the priesthood or religious life because He sees you fit in that role. I am not discouraging you about finding your soulmate. All I am saying is that sometimes we are so focused on our plans and desires that we fail to incorporate God’s plans in our lives. Maybe it’s time that we stop looking for our Happy Endings and start looking up to God instead. And I believe, that when we seek His face and feel His embrace, we will forever be happy.

Stay in love. Stay in God’s Love!

Dawn 🙂

Posted in Rhythms and Rhymes

Just Fall in Love


Fall in love with someone
Who sees all your flaws but
Still accepts you for who you are.
Fall in love with someone
Who would rather hug you than kiss you
Coz he values the importance and essence
Of a kiss.
Fall in love with someone
Who is afraid to let go of your hand.
Fall in love with someone
Who treats his mom as a queen
And his sisters like princesses.
Fall in love with someone
Whom you can’t live without.
Fall in love with someone
Whom you can trust and respect.
Fall in love with someone
Whom you can see your future with
Fall in love with someone
Who makes you spontaneous
Whom you can talk without hesitation
And who can make you laugh with even
The most stupid jokes.
Fall in love with someone
Who respects you and your personal plans
But is still willing to compromise
And meet half way just to build
Future plans with you.
Above all,
Fall in love with someone
Who loves God more that he loves you.

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