Posted in Epistles of the Heart

Icy Walls Broken Down

She built her walls so strong no one can break through it. She built her walls so high hoping no one can climb over it. When she got her heart broken, she vowed to never let her heart be smashed again, to never let anyone penetrate her walls again. She was okay for quite some time. She has learned to stand on her own again. She has returned to her solo flight mode, eating out alone and strolling the malls on her own, enjoying her own company. She was okay – or so she thought she was. She was so confident that her refuge, her ground is safe and secure.

You came unexpectedly. You were boring – lacking depth. She finds having small talks with you agonizing. She was about to give up on you but someone told her, “Hey, why don’t you give him a chance. Maybe he’s just gaining his footing.” And so she told herself, “Okay! One more try.”

The days passed and she gets to know you better. She gets to know who the real you is, your struggles, the difficulties you’ve been through, the heartaches that shattered you million times. She admired your belief in love, your faith in humanity and the goodness of the human heart. You’ve endured so much pain and had gone through a lot of difficulties growing up yet you remain kind-hearted. Never did you let all those pains and sufferings from hardening your heart. And here she is, with just a teeny-tiny bit of pain from the past and she was retreating to her cave again, she was hiding behind her walls, she was shutting everyone out. She admired how you still believe in love, in happy endings, in #forever even if you were cheated on, betrayed and hurt. She cannot believe that there ever exists someone who is so kind and loving as you are even after everything that you’ve been through.

iStock_000018767461XSmallShe never realized that her walls weren’t strong enough until one day, she just felt it melting and crumbling down. She wasn’t prepared for the strong earthquake, the tremendous shake that shattered her walls and broken down her defenses. You’ve turned her walls into sheets of ice making her realized how cold her heart is. And the warmth of your heart slowly melted them away. She was left vulnerable and unsafe again. She has opened her heart to you without her knowing it. Little did she know, you have slowly made a space in her heart. For her, your absence is uncomfortable; your silence is very painful. She was really scared. You are so like her and she is you in most aspects of your beliefs and principles in life. But one thing she loves about you is that she can be who she is, the goofy, funny, carefree little girl that has been hiding inside a strong and independent woman. She could be Ms. Clingy. She could be crazy. She could be funny and weird and most of all, she could laugh without limits, not thinking whether it’s prim and proper or not. She can be who she is when she is with you.

She woke up one day and realized that you’ve already created a personal space in her heart. You already occupied a portion of her heart and without you in it, she felt empty and incomplete.

And she just woke up one day, walls broken, unsafe, uncomfortable,  vulnerable and in love…

You broke her walls. You shattered her defenses…

But you built a wall of love around her heart. You created a steady stream of happiness in her life. She will be forever thankful to you for showing her how wonderful it is to love and to be loved again. For giving her the privilege to feel this kind of feeling, this euphoria of blissful happiness. For loving her and for making her understand why it never worked out with those from her past. And she will always be thankful to those who left you because if they stayed, she will not have the chance to be with you. She is very grateful for your coming into her life in the most unexpected, unimaginable way ever.

Your arms and your loving embrace is her safe refuge now. She doesn’t need walls. Your love is enough to keep her safe.

 

Stay in Love. Stay in God’s Love  ❤

Sarah Dawn 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Remember To Wait, Because God Has Perfect Timing

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To you who feels like giving up on that one dream: don’t. You have to hold on a little bit more. Give yourself and your dream more time to materialize. You have to live to that day when you will be able to say to yourself, “I made it.” You have to believe that this long stretch of waiting and getting impatient is part of the process.

You have to cling to the hope that God has the best plans for you (Jer 29:11) and all He think about is for your greater good. Call into mind all the things you’ve done, all the sacrifices you’ve made, all the efforts you have exerted to achieve your dream. You have to stay focused. Do not falter. Keep on pushing and striving to achieve your goals.

To you who feels weary for waiting too long and wants to settle for what is available: don’t. The waiting process is really tiring. Every night, as you lay down in bed, a lot of questions may have crossed your mind, debates about the right and wrong decisions you made, about creating backup plans and fallback tactics, about regretting bad choices and not following great advice from others.

I know there is chaos inside you. I know there’s that voice telling you to stop pursuing your dream and settle for what or where you’re currently in. Don’t! Every wrong decision, every bad choice, every painful mistake is all part of the plan. The journey is painful. Going uphill is really tiring. But remember: all the obstacles and difficulties are just part of the journey, something that we should embrace and enjoy because that what makes reaching “up there” all worth it.

You have to learn to see the beauty in all these tears and failures. All those difficulties will make you stronger.

Every mistake will make you wiser. And after all, when you have weathered everything, success will be such a sweet treat. However, never focus on the destination, they say. Enjoy every turn, every climb, every stumbling block. They will mold you and make better and well-seasoned.

To you who feels like giving up and is thinking about quitting: don’t. Giving up and quitting are not for victors. You are born to do more, to be bigger. You are born to achieve. God has created you to be a conqueror. He wants you to increase your territories, to expand your horizons. God promised you a bright future. He has placed that desire in your heart, a HOPE. And He will see you through.

Quitting is for the weak of heart. It is for those who lack determination and willpower. Quitting is equivalent to failing. And if you want to succeed, quitting is not an option. It is NEVER an option.

Never give up on something you are really sure about. Never lose hope of getting what you are praying for.

At this point, God’s answer might not be a yes, but He knows the perfect timing. And a yes from Him would be worth the wait. I believe people quit praying because they thought God’ silence is a no. But sometimes, we have to hold on a little bit longer because after all, it might be a wait, a wait for His perfect timing.

The waiting process is painful because waiting is frustrating. You are subjected to pain because, only in extreme circumstances, can true beauty emerge. Only in painful events will your heart be created pure and true, pureness of love for God and being true in trust in His plans.

“There is no oil without squeezing the olives

No wine without pressing the grapes

No fragrance without crushing the flowers

And no real joy without sorrow.”

– Anonymous

Life is pressing you to bring out the best in you. All the problems and trials are crushing you so that you will exude that beautiful aroma of success. Pains and sufferings are squeezing you so that you will produce something, develop something, build your character to be able to take on bigger and more difficult challenges ahead of you.

To you who feels like giving up and is thinking about quitting: don’t. Just hold on. Hang in there. God is not through with you yet.

Your dream of a bright future is also God’s dream for you. Your dream of a better tomorrow is just around the corner. Whatever your dream, whether how small or big that may be, hold on to it. Keep it in your heart.

You may feel like you are too far from getting there, you’re never too close to achieving it but never lose hope. Whatever pain and suffering you are going through right now, feel it, just feel it. It will make you strong. No matter how deep you fall, bounce back; and bounce back higher and stronger.

There is this thing they call blessings-in-disguise. Where wrong turns, failures, tears, disappointments are not who they seem they are but are turning points and little nudges from heaven. These pains are God’s way of leading us to something better, something bigger, something more wonderful, something that we most deserve, the fulfillment of all our hearts desires.

In every failure, never be afraid to try again. You have countless chances and there are unlimited possibilities. As long as you are breathing, you can do more and be more. As long as you can hear that thud in your chest, you have endless opportunities waiting to be grabbed. Never give up. Never lose hope. And never lose sight of the beauty of what awaits you, as long as you never get tired of taking chances and holding on to God’s promises, you will eventually get there.

Bear in mind that every mistake, every wrong decision often leads us to where God wants us to be. Every pain, every tear often shapes us into who He wants us to be. Let the Maker mold you. Allow Him to shape you.

Let the waiting process be fruitful instead of painful. See the beauty in all the bumps and pauses. Remember: It’s NOT a dead end. It’s only a detour, a traffic jam or a spare tire issue. You will eventually get there, in His perfect time.

Stay in love! Stay in God’s love..

Sarah Dawn 🙂

 

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Where Does Love Go When It Dies

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If the heart is the place where love comes,
Then where does it go when it dies?
Back to the heart where it comes from?
Or turn into tears in the eyes?

But even if one knew the answer
What would one possibly gain
Would the knowledge of where love has gone through
Ease the heartaches, the pain and the sorrow.

Why is it one cannot quite realize
What a blessing this true love can be
Must one love to know it it priceless?
Must one be blinded before one can see?

Ah! Where does love go when it leaves us?
This question will always remain
For we will know the answer
Until we love again.

AUTHOR’S NOTE:

I happened to have found this composition somewhere in my old files. I cannot recall writing it so I cannot really take credit to it. This is written in a grungy bond paper through a typewriter. I can’t imagine how old this may have been composed given the manner of how this was written. But nonetheless, this is such a beautiful poem that I can’t resist not to publish. It has made me asked myself too. Where does love go when it dies? Where does it go when it leave us? Or does love really leave and die?

I think love never leave one’s heart nor it dies. It remains (1 Cor 13:13b) forever. However, the pain, the heartache, the sorrow – they usually overpower love.And when they rule our hearts, we tend to believe that our love dies. They say there is a thin line between love and hate and one cannot exist without the other. Therefore, hate cannot exists without love and so is the latter without the previous. Bottomline: LOVE REMAINS FOREVER.

Stay in love. Stay in God’s love.

Sarah Dawn 🙂

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A Letter To You From The Cracks Of My Heart

Hello dearest,

Wherever you are right now, I pray that God is the center of your heart. I pray that you, too, desires to please Him, that you are seeking Him more than you are looking for me. I never prayed for you to come in my life before. Maybe that is why we haven’t met yet. However, right now, I often wake up in the middle of the night with a creeping loneliness in my heart. I feel so empty and there is this part of me that longs to know you, that longs to meet you soon.

Right now, more that anyone or anything else, I pray that God will ease the loneliness in my heart. I pray that He will replace this with patience. I know I am such a wreck right now and it would be so unfair if you will meet me in my current state. You would probably dislike me coz my cracks are so visible, you might even be devoured by it.

I am a work-in-progress and I would definitely want that you will meet me when I’m fully functional, not that I would be completed anytime soon because I know completion is such a long process. I pray that when we finally meet, you will love the cracks and the quirks, you will appreciate the weirdness of how my life is organized, you will accept the darkness of my past and you will still be there to illuminate the path towards my future, a future that I am so willing to share with you.

I am scared, you know. Scared that you might not be able to find me. There are moments when I would just try to figure out and imagine how are you or what are you up to. I am so excited to hear your stories and to share mine as well. Please don’t arrive soon though because I feel I still have so much fixing to do in my life. However, please pray for me that I will be fixed soon, that God will heal me sooner so that I will be whole again when I will finally meet you.

I long to see you. I long serve God with you. And most especially, I long to grow old with you.

Best regards,

Twilight Princess

 

Posted in Rhythms and Rhymes

Just Hold Me

It’s so dark and I am lost

Can You please hold my hand Lord?

It’s so dark and I feel lost

Can You embrace me my Lord?

Darkness tries to devour me

This nagging reality looming

Ahead of me

Reality so dark and trying

To envelope me. Yes! Lord, please

Help me. Please just hold me

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My Quest

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Life is an endless journey. We are travelers to a destination that is uncertain, a destination of unknown and untold realities. What awaits us there, no one knows and nobody can tell. But the question is: When would this travel end? Would it end the moment we die? Will it end the moment we breathe the last breath of life? Or would the journey continue after death. The answer is unknown because no one has come back to tell the living what awaits us there.

The uncertainty of life has caused chills inside me. As a child, a lot of questions lurked inside my head. What could I become in the future? Will I be successful? Will I reach the age of 50? Will I be able to have my own family? These were some of the questions that were left unanswered. Until I reached adulthood when I feel that those questions when I was a child seemed obscure and childish, even foolish. But still the fear of the unknown hasn’t left me. I am still haunted with the fear of being unable to handle the reality that awaits me in the end. But what really is the end? Is it something that we can experience because of the things that we do today? Are those the consequences of our decisions that we playfully made? Is it some sort of punishment due to the kind of living that we practice today? Different questions, yet the same bottom-line – the question and the desire to know the unknown. I’ve been through a lot and I could say that life has never been easy. I’ve experienced happiness as well as misery and I could tell that all these things are the end-product of my decisions before.

My questions when I was a child were already answered but with each answer emerges another question and the endless quest for answers starts again. And then I realized that the more I wanted to define my future, the end of what I called “My Life”, the more questions are laid down and more fear of dealing with the uncertain and unknown end are visualized. I quit. I resolved to stop this nonsense thinking! I cannot always prepare for the future. I cannot continue figuring out what the future holds for me. It’s not mine to foresee and it’s not mine to mind. I will live life the way I want it to be and there’s no one to stop me. I set my own rules, I build my own walls and limitations, and I will decide to whatever I will encounter with the knowledge that all these decisions shall contribute to the wellness or misery of my life. I cannot hold the future. I cannot define it the way I wanted it to be. I cannot also rebuild the past, for all that has happened shall never come to pass again. But I can live today to the fullest, to the best way I ever could. And I will cherish each moment knowing that life is a gift from God that should be spent in the fullest way possible. I will live today as if there’s no tomorrow.

My life is an endless journey. And there are still questions that sometimes pop in my mind. But I know that it’s endless and the questions are never-ending. And since it’s endless, defining its end would be futile and thinking of what tomorrow could be is such a pointless act. Are you acting that way too? At some point in your life, do you desire to furnish a future based on what you want and on what you define as a perfect future could be? Again my friends let me tell you: Defining your future is futile for only God holds our future.